This is a question that I have been wrestling with for the past 12 months, like never before. I've struggled to find answers, really struggled to the point that I gave up in order to have a rest. I found though that I could never really switch it off, not for any great length of time anyway. I'm still working though some really tough stuff right now, feeling very much along in my struggles the vast majority of the time, but I refuse to give up. The one thing that I never really doubted throughout the last year was the existence of God. Belief in Jesus however, that went to the point that I no longer considered myself to be a Christian. I felt like such a hypocrite as I graduated my DTS as a non-believer! I stuck DTS out because when I left home, I knew I was in for a tough time and I promised that I would stick at it no matter what. I'm glad I did. Really glad. I love and miss the people that I met during that season in my life like no others. If they were all still in the one place, I would have moved to be with them all by now! So its safe to say I don't regret DTS one bit, but my faith has barely improved since DTS, some days I believe, and others don't. I struggle to reconcile what the bible says with my experiences over the past year. I feel like the pressure is off now though, DTS was a very pressured environment, which had I of had some faith left, would have done me the world of good! (In fairness DTS did me the world of good, but in different ways.)
Now that the pressure is off, I'm enjoying exploring the claims of Christianity, especially those of Christ himself. I'm especially enjoying investigating the authenticity of the bible itself. All this to say that Keevy shared a series of messages with me that she thought I would like, and I would love to share them with you. As I've listened to the series I've loved more and more each message, especially those on creation. I think this is because it encourages me in an area where I already believe in God, and because the things I knew were going on in the scientific world have been laid bare in simple terms. I hope not only to remember, but to quote to the information those who believe in evolution.
Check out the podcast on itunes here. Look specifically for the Why I Believe series.
I'm hoping to listen again to the series again, summarising and quoting from the messages in future blog posts.
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I also went through a process a long time ago about what I believed. Deciding that God exists was the easy part. The design of the universe, plus the consciousness of my mind, was proof for my that a great creator God exists.
The hardest part was trying to prove if the Bible is God's word, but eventually (after about 10 years) I was able to prove to my own satisfaction that the Bible was inspired by God, using fulfilled prophecy as proof.
But I still had to trust God that what He says in the Bible is true, and that is where faith came into play.
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